You know how sometimes in life, you meet someone that you know isn’t someone you want in your life, but somehow they manage to wiggle their way in? Maybe you’re too nice, or maybe you are afraid of hurting their feelings, (or afraid of them in general), or maybe you actually do like them to an extent… Whatever the reason is, you find yourself partaking in a toxic relationship that you aren’t happy with, and starts to affect who you are as a person.
This person is the catalyst for me to finally begin my blog. I’ve wanted to do a blog ever since my sophomore year of college, so six years later, it’s probably time anyways. I finally, after a snowball of events, am free of this toxic friendship. (By the way, I am in no way saying I am not at fault for some of the toxicity). Christmas was here, my new job was going fantastically, and I was finally free of the heavy pit in my stomach that came with that friendship. Until one night, I was riding home on the trolley. (By the way, you will get to read more about my trolley experiences throughout this blog). I opened up Pinterest, naturally, to browse the endless fashion inspo, DIYs, homes I can never afford, and weddings I will never have. Earlier that week, I had started researching tips on how to start a blog, and pinned a couple of pages I wanted to actually peruse later. When I opened up my Pinterest, a notification for a comment caught my eye. At first I was confused, because who ACTUALLY comments on Pinterest? And then when I realized what had occurred, that heavy, exhausting pit jumped right back into me. The comment, on a “How to Grow Your Blog to a Full-Time Business” pin, read “LoL” – made by the very girl I had finally freed myself from. She was actually (well, virtually) LAUGHING at my goal to start my own blog, and hopefully, a successful one. I went through alllll sorts of feels; I was furious for about ten seconds (and considered commenting back with some *@^# you @&#^$!), then I was sad for another five (remember that part about actually sort of liking that toxic person?), then I laughed at how pathetic it was that she felt the need to comment on mypin, and lurk on my LinkedIn page (an email notified me that someone had looked at my page. Lo and behold, it was her!). After about twenty back and forth texts between my very reasonable and gorgeous bff, she talked me off my vengeful ledge and I decided the best path was to not respond. Instead, I would prove to myself that I will FINALLY (like I said, six years) start my blog, and that I will succeed. Does success necessarily mean being a top blogger? I would say at first, that was my goal. But six years down the road, and a lot of life experience later, my success will be determined by the fulfillment of my creative passions.
I hope that you and I, whomever you may be, have a very healthy, non-toxic relationship throughout this blog. If you don’t like one of my posts, let me know, because I am all about communication. If you want to see more of something, tell me, and I will do my absolute best to bring more of that to the web-table. If I offend you (which I may, with my tendency to lean towards sarcasm), throw spaghetti at my picture on your computer. But actually don’t do that, because computers are expensive. I want my readership (if I gain ANY) to be my friends, and I want to be yours. So let’s cheers to 2016, healthy relationships, and hopefully very successful passions.